a poem...from oct....lmao

when ii reached the top of the moutain...
ii let out a heart filled scream...
jst to tell the world
all the things you did to me....
your lying, your cheating..
your broken promises,
all the problems you did created
and nothing ii did...
ii gave you my heart
and ii got nothing in return...
let me tell you baby,
lesson learned...
i'm on this moutain
to forget all these thoughts
of you.
i'm gonna run away from
those horrible thing you do.

my story still needs a name....lol

lunch time...
when me and Saraphina made it to the doors of the lunchroom. ii felt the need to turn around ii knew "she" would be in there. ii felt a tug on my heart as the flood of memories can back. Saraphina noticed my hesitation to go inside...
"umm vendetta are you coming or not??" ii took a deep breath and really thought if going in would be a really good idea.
"umm ii dnt kno Saraphina...ii have..umm...sumthin...ii need to ermm...do..."ii stuttered...she gave me a funny and sighed....
"ii understand.." she paused and looked me in the eyes...ii felt my heart stop...."you dnt want to be seen with the freaky new girl right?...the girl that everyone will stare at the new....FREAK.." damn it...ii really screwed up my chance with her....why can't ii do shit right....
"it's not that at all...ii really jst needed to get some research done. ii really don't have anything against you. ii happen to think your a pretty cool person..."
she looked at me and thought abt what ii said....she smiled at me and grabbed my arm and dragged me into the lunchroom..

my story...it need a name....lol

period two...

ii walked to my english class and saw Saraphina sitting in the seat next to mine.

ii felt my heart race as ii walked towards her seat. she didn't say anything as ii took a seat next to her. my english teacher Ms. Gaskarth came over and started talking to Saraphina.

"we started a unit on creative writing. We're doing a partner based one. All but one person has a partner and that's because she just came back from being sick." ii felt my heart stop...ii think my teacher is trying to kill me. "Vendetta would you mind working with our new student?" She gave me the teacher look and ii knew ii didn't have choice. my throat was dry so ii swallowed and took a deep breath. "no....ii dont...it's umm fine Ms. Gaskarth." She shook her head yes and walked away. ii turned to Saraphina and ii felt my heart flutter. ii recovered and went to open my mouth.

"umm Vendetta before you say anything i'm going to be frank with you...ii don't want to be here. ii don't want to work with anyone. ii have nothing against you, but i'm just not a people person."

"Saraphina..ii-"

"oh just so you know...i'm a lesbian....most people run from me when they find out...so go ahead be like everyone else....ii know now you want to change partners."

"can you just let me speak??" she gave me a look but said nothing

"i'm not just some stupid person that's gonna judge you because your different. i'll stay partners with you for this. but after your free to do what you want unless you want to talk to Ms. Gaskarth and see if you can work by yourself." she looked at me and thought about it...

" ii guess ii could work with you...for this project. it's not going to kill me...ii guess..."

"fine... so what type of story do you want to write...or do you want it to be poems or songs??"

"story might work out...let's brainstorm." she patted my wrist and started writing. ii felt my heart skip again and my breath left me. ii put my head on my desk and sighed....

"are you alright Vendetta??" ii shook my head yes and ii felt her put her hand on my back...ii felt shivers down my back...5 minutes later it was time for lunch...

"vendetta...do you have lunch now??" ii shook my head yes.

"well umm do you mind if ii sit with you??"

"no you can come ii don't sit with anyone anyways." she looked at me but didn't ask any questions.

hm...a story

so for creative writing ii decided to write a story...i'ma do it on here and then jst transfor it to paper...

First Period...

ii looked up at the celing of my highschool. it's always the same. it's always the same ugly piss yellow tiles. ii sighed and put my head back down on the desk. it's always the same thing. ii looked at my teacher Mr. McKay and he looked like he didn't wanna be there as much ii didn't. we heard a quiet knock on the door and we all looked as Mrs. Roslin walked in with mysterious girl behind her. Mrs. Roslin whispered something into Mr. McKay's and then left the girl. Mr. Mckay cleared his throat. "Class ii would like to introduce to you a new student her name is Saraphina and she just moved here from Las Vegas. Please welcome her with open arms and welcome her here to our little town of LakeWood." Mr. McKay looked around and spotted a seat next to me. "Saraphina can you please take a seat. There is one near Vendetta."
He looked at me. "Vendetta can you please raise your hand." ii raised my hand
and watched her walked towards me. ii studied her...she was beautiful.
she had this blue/black raven hair. her hazel eyes danced in the fluorescent lighting.
her pale skin looked amazing compared to the piss colored walls...
ii flashed her a smile as she sat down next me to me. she looked down and started writing in her notebook. five minutes later the bell rang and she ran out the class. ii sighed..some people can be so strange.

AWKWARD MOMENT!!

so today was like the worst day ever.
of all days....
of all friggen days to have a turtle moment...
made me wanna crawl under a rock...
ii felt my knees buckle
and my heart began to race.....
ii had to grab on my boyfriend
to keep from falling down....
but let me tell you what happened...
ii was with my bf cuz he came with me today
and my mom was late to come get us...
and me, him and my sister were together was their
and we saw my ex gf with her new gf....
and my ex gf still has feelings for me...
and she hates my bf...
and it was just so damn bad...
and the ting is ii had a feeling ii was gonna see her
just look at what happened....
ii jst hope it never happens again....
it was too much for me...

a paramore morning

so this morning ii got serenaded by my friend gio.
he wasnt singing to me...
but he was playin paramore song ii wanted
and it made me wanna sing along...and the thing is we do this every morning
he'll play paramore songs and i'll sing
today ii ended up singing to caro and she it was funny cuz she was just standing there taking it.
there wasnt much else she could do unless she was gonna walk away.
but she didnt and ii sang
-misery business
-decode
-crushcrushcrush
-pressure
and finally
-emergency
which is what ii sang to caro and she lovered it.
its a great way to start off the morning lol.

part of my fave songs by all time low

meet me on thames Street

i'll take you though i'm hardly worth your time.

in the cold you look so fierce but i'm warm enough.

because the tensions like a fire.

we'll hit south broadway in a matter of minutes

and like a bad movie, i'll drop a line

fall in the grave i've i've been diggin myself

but there's room for two

six feet under the stars.

-Six feet under the stars

i've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you to dwell,

in this endeavor, make this last forever....

i'm just delirious

you can't be serious,

you're so infamous for leaving me a mess...

-The girl's a straight up hustler

take a breath

don't it sound so easy?

never had a doubt 

now i'm going crazy

watching from the floor.

take a breath

and let the rest come easy 

never settle down

cuz the cash flow leaves me

always wanting more

-Dear Maria, Count me in

you've got me poppin' champagne

i'm at it again

caught up in the moment

but not in the right way

i'm falling in between

tearing up a the seams

we're aiming to please

and aesthetics don't hurt one bit.

-Poppin Champagne 

stay awake, get a grip and get out

you're safe from the weight of the world

just take a second to set things straight 

i'll be fine even though i'm not always right

i can count on the sun to shine

dedication takes a lifetime

but dreams only last for the night

-Stay Awake(dreams only last for the night)

my football sunday...

sitting in my living room...
my dad watchin the football game...
is it me...or is the t.v gettin louder...
the roar of the ppl at the stadium...
my mom is upstairs sick...
the surround sound is off...
and its all from the tv...
the yelling and screaming....
the blowin of the whistle....
ii turn to look at my dad...
and he lowers the volume and ask...
"is this better for you?"
ii give him the look and he picks it up again.....
its the samething every sunday....
football....football...football