IT'S OFFICAL!!

mother nature hates emo kids....
me and ashley have come to the conclusion of that...
she makes it snow a shitload today...
shes gonna make it snow tomorrow...
do u kno what snow does to emo kids...
it screws up their perfectly straight hair....
and make up...
WHAT ELSE DOES AN EMO KID HAVE!!
bad hair and bad make up=A VERY VERY SAD EMO!!
so b/c mother nature is makin it snow...
she hates emo kids...
let all the emo kids around the world now...
it isnt safe for them....
(//_T) why does she have to pick on the emos??

random thinking

ii was doing some random thinking...and ii couldnt be happier with my life... i'm finally in a relationship that works. ii care abt him and he cares abt me. not to mention hes my longest relationship....5 months...lol may not seem like a long time..but its the first time im gonna commit myself fully. ii got into the school ii really wanted to go too...ii have a lot of great friends....but one thing that really brings me down..is thinking about my grandmothers. she died 2 years ago. and it's weird because there is a lot of things ii would have liked to share with her...ii would have told her first abt me being bi..and ii know that ii would have had her when my mom was havin problems with it. ii kno she would have wanted to meet my gf at the time. and now ii would have loved for my boyfriend to meet her. she meant the world to me...and ii dnt kno...it's cuz of her that i'm the way ii am. my sassyness, my humor, my compassion for people...is all cuz of the times ii speant with her. ii couldn't have asked for a better second mother. but for her anyone who met her, loved her. she kept it real, didn't care who it would offend. she always cared about other people and best of all she was funny as hell....whats bettr then that.....im not sure what ii miss the most.
-the endless hrs of shirley temple, golden girls, columbo, murder,she wrote, laura, or sala de paraja.
-the non-stop jokes
-her hugs
-playing with her jewlery
-her advice
when ii think about it, what ii miss the most would have to be the love she gave me...

back to the no name story

hallway....

as soon as ii stepped out of the library Saraphina ran up to me.
"Vendetta...ii did it....after you left. Christy came over to me and started asking me questions. and we really hit it off...we both like a lot of the samethings. we're going out tonight. thanks for the help." She gave me a gave a hug and ii patted her back.
"it's no problem, im happy for you. ii hope things go great tonight." ii gave her my best fake smile and turned to go to my locker. as ii started walking away ii heard her footsteps behind me.
"Vendetta wait up..." she grabbed my hand and ii felt my heart skip."do you have science next??" ii shook my head yes and looked at her.
"ii just have to go to my locker. the science room is down the hall over there and the fouth door on your right."
"thanks..." ii watched her walk away and little by little the hallway emptied. before ii knew it, there was only me and one other person in the hallway. ii turned to see who..and ii felt time freeze as ii saw Alesana in the hallway. She looked at me and walked over.
"Vendetta...long time no talk...."ii looked at her unsure of what to say...or where this was going. "that girl your with...the new one..what's up with that??"
"you mean Saraphina??" she shook her head yes. "nothing we're friends...ii dnt kno. im jst helping her get around.... why does it bother you??"
she looked at me...."your the one who started the whole thing...ii may have left you...but you started the fight....ii not only broke your heart...but ii broke you as person." she sighed. "it's simple." she pushed me against the locks and pushed her body against mine. "u want me..but u can't have me...and ii plan to use that against you..." she moved closed to my face and her lips were near mine. "you can try all you want to go for Saraphina....but Vee...ii will do whatever ii can to make your life miserable....ii will even take Saraphina from you...don't test me." she kissed me and ii felt her bite my lower lip."no matter what your at my command...no way i'm letting you go..." she walked away and left me there...ii turned to my locker grabbed my book and ran to class...my head wad clouded with everything that just happened. ii kno its wrong what she plans to do...but ii dnt think ii have it in me to fight her....

hollywood undead....song: No5

Hollywood, We're never going down.



[Chorus: Deuce] And all the kids in the hood come on wave and shake your hands hollywood we're never going down And when you're drunk shake that ass like you know how to dance hollywood we're never going down.



[Verse 1: Charlie Scene] Start gettin loud, I wanna party now If you hate on undead that's a party foul I only drink Mickey's, I can't afford the can I drink so much they call me Charlie forty hands If the keg is tapped and you're gettin capped take your girl to the sack and we'll take a nap Ladies drink em fast so I can have a blast you got your beer gogs on and I'm gettin ass like "Oh my god is that Charlie Scene?" Lady show me your treats like it's halloween You got a fake i.d. and you're seventeen I'm a complete catastrophy buzzing around you like a bumble bee So let's take some shots! do a beer run and flip off a cop! Girl's give me props when they're on my jock! Paris Hilton said that's hot when she saw my cock! That's hot!



[Chorus: Deuce]



[Verse 2: Johnny 3 Tears] I'm about to serve it up for all you party goers! Scene kids, meat head, alchi's, stoners! Dancin around like a bunch of faggots funnier then fuck you can ask Bob Saget! I never claimed that I knew how to dance but I'll get drunk, get high, then pull down my pants So fuck five bucks just fill up my cup don't kiss me bitch you just threw up. Now drunk as fuck about to pass out destination your mothers couch "Dude is it true you screwed my mom?" Fuck yeah bro that pussy was bomb. So I'm hoppin, jumpin, sippin, and skippin! It's nights like these that we all love livin! So take out your hands and throw the H.U. up now wave it around like you don't give a fuck! Check please!



[Chorus: Deuce]





[Verse 3: Funny Man] Can't stop won't stop Charlie make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Johnny make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop J make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Peters make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Kurlzz make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Funny make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop let me see the panties drop Deuce's on the dance floor let me see your booty pop! Grab your drink, get on the floor! Grab your drink, and get on the floor! Let's dance in the hood shake that ass Hollywood!



[Chorus: Deuce]

my sister the aminal lover...and yesh ii meant aminal..

so since it snowed...
we have had a little fun at my house.
animal tracks have showed up around my house...
we have cats, squirrels and a mysterious one.
at first we thought that the possum from last winter had come back to our house.
but after a look at this website called bear-track.com...we realized it wasnt...
after my sister thought it was...
-bobcat...
-lynx
-badger
-black bear
-moutian lion
-dog
-cat
-river otter
-gray fox
-wolf...
the list foes on and on..but finally....we realized that we might have bunny on our hands...wth a bunny is doin roamin the streets of brooklyn is amazing....but we really still have no clue what the hell it is...if their is more then one... and ii guess only time will tell what it is...but the problem is the little bugger runs around either at dusk...or early early in the moring when no one in my house is around...so its like..we have no way to see it...oh wells...its funny to see my sister look at tracks online and see what they are...lol...gets her off my back somtimes. XD

still no idea for a name....

Library...

ii looked up at the clock and saw that ii still had 45 minutes left for lunch...this gave me time to do whatever work ii needed too. ii opened my email and saw ii had one from Alex.

hey sweets,

ii miss seeing you!! *tear tear* hows skool?? anything new??

anyone new?? incase your wondering ii found the perfect person.

his name is Jack and my mom loves him. shes finally fine that im gay...

took her long enough. 6 1/2 months to be exact. but we all cnt be perfect can we??

im trying to come visit as soon as ii can...but ii can't find a job and money is tight round my house. not too mention my dad is still being a dick.

him and my mom fight almost everynight now.

ii have a feeling that it's gonna be over soon.

when that happens. i'm coming to you.

so you better be stock with all sorts of candy.

but please write back as soon as you can.

Love you,

Alexander xoxo

ii read the email a couple of times before ii could think of an answer. ii kno if ii told Alex about Saraphina ii wouldn't hear the end of it. but it was a risk ii had to take. ii opened up a new message and started to write.

hello gay buddy of mine,

long time no talk.

ii miss hearing ur sassy back talking in class.

nothing is new...school is just as boring as ever.

but there us a new student...shes like an uber goth...

and really hot...her name is Saraphina and i'm working on a english project with her.

ii kno what your thinking...and no ii haven't told her that i'm a lesbian.

not really sure if ii should. ii mean what happened to me and Aiden still burns.

ii mean its my first day of school and this hot girl is all ii can think of.

but ii screwed up my chance with her anyways.

she asked about Christy Joyce...and ii was with her until...

her and Christy had a moment and ii jst left Saraphina in the cafe.

and Saraphina asked all about Christy...so that's out the window.

ii kno your gonna be mad when you read..but ii dnt kno...

ii whimped out....my bad...

anyways. ur more then welcomed to my house.

you remember what my mom said about you.

"Alex dear..your welcomed here anytime...i'll be your mom if you need one.

you kno ii will always love you"

so there won't be a problem.

write back soon.

love you too,

Vendetta...XOXO

hmm...it still needs a name...

the lunch table....



as me and Saraphina walked to the lunchtable ii felt "her" eyes follow me. it burned a hole in the back of my head...ii turned to look and out eyes met for a minute...ii could see the pain and ii dropped my gaze. Saraphina looked at me and sat down with her food...

"whats up with that??" she pointed to "her"....."who's she??". ii looked at Saraphina not sure how to answer her...

"the 'she' your referring too..is someone ii used to be bestfriends with..we have a problem abt 3 weeks ago...ii stood home for about 2 weeks and now i'm back...and that's when you came in...her name is Alesana...." ii felt the tears about to start..ii couldn't tell her just yet....it's too soon. and it still hurts very much.

"so she meant a lot to you huh?" ii looked at her and shook my head yes...she started playing with her food. "ii think their is more then your letting on...but ii won't push you. ii guess when you trust me enough you'll tell me...until then i'll just drop me.

"thanks" ii muttered...she shook her head yes and started looking around the cafe.
"so since i'm here...can you tell me about some of the people here??" ii looked around the room.
"who do you wanna kno about Saraphina??"
she looked around and nodded to this girl..."ii wanna kno about her....everything you know...."
ii turned and looked at the girl and ii felt my jaw drop. ii turned to see one of the hottest girls in school...besides Alesana.
"well Saraphina...that 'her' is named Christy Joyce, she's a senior like us. She's Bi ii believe...ii don't remember anyone. She has never been in a relationship for more then 2 months...guys want her, girls want her. girls want to be her, and she's not the head of the cheerleaders but just as popular as her.umm what else...when she see what she wants she will go for it no matter what...even if they're taken and then she'll leave them in a heart beat. she just chews people up and then spits them out...but other then that she's really hot and easy. and when she's drunk it's even worse." ii saw a twinkle in Saraphina's eyes as ii told her about Christy and ii knew that ii might have messed up my chance with Saraphina. ii bit my lip and looked at Saraphina.
" so she's not dating anyone...ii could really try my chance with her...."ii looked over at Christy and realized that she was checking Saraphina out.
ii sighed and looked at Saraphina..."if you want to call her over..do it...ii have work to do i'll talk to you later.." ii turned and saw Christy walking towards Saraphina. Saraphina waved bye to me and ii walked out. why can't anything work for me....ii sighed and started walking to the library.
ii have being me sumtimes...

hmm how about a poem....

u can blame me for w/e and the how u claim to be...

but u were already this way b4 u met me.

u said ii fuked u over and whatever else u think...

what about the times u skated around my feelings like an ice skating rink?

so go on and say this and that...

but in the end its all ur fault..

and thats a fact...

so give it all ur might to make me feel bad...

but in the end...

u'll be the only one whos sad....