RIKU IS AMAZING!!

ii am no longer sick....

ii cnt believe it. ii am so damn happy. ii did nothing but play kingdom heart and watching movies.

thats my main squeeze from kingdom hearts. his name is riku. if he was a real person my boyfriend would be totally assed out. ii would leave him in a heartbeat for him. He's tall, myserious, and jst all around sexy. hes the main reason ii play kingdom hearts. jst so that ii can get a look at him. ii mean sure ii get so mad that ii want to throw my game controler at the tv screen. but riku makes up for it....dnt u think??

ii mean ii had no idea video game characters can jst be ssssssooooo damn sexy.....*sigh* if ii saw him in person im not sure what ii would do. or if ii saw sum hot guy cos-playing him....HOLY CRAP!! ii would jump on him....but ii havent found a hot cos-play of riku....its so sad......=[ but oh wells

my baby!!

this is the car ii want....in this color....this is my new baby....it's a porchse 911 turbo.

it's the same car alice from twilight has....

and ii want this so bad...it goes so damn fast...

and this car is jst SEXY!!!

ii plan on gettin this once im out of college. ii will do anything ii need to do to get this...ii jst could nvr believe cars could be this sexy. its jst amazing. ii nvr really care much about cars but when i say this i could help but want this car so bad. when ii read abt it in the book ii was like that sounds sexy. and then ii saw the pic and ii fell to the floor cuz of how sexy it is. even was dad was amazed that ii would like a car like this. and he looked at me and was like damn....thats pretty awesome. ii really jst hope that ii do get this car. it will make me a happy panda....ii jst cnt believe how much ii love this car.....makes me smile everytime ii see it....first car that can ever make me do this...

aaaahhhh!!! so hot...

invisible cheerleader

i'll be ur invisble cheerleader,
pretending to be your friend.
the person that will always
be there till the very end.
hiding on the sidelines,
blending in with the crowd,
not showing my emotions,
cuz thats not allowed.
to them ii dnt exsit,
yet to u im everything
truth of the matter is....
i'll be ur anything.
i'll be ur invisble cheerleader
and i'll give it my best,
jst to try....
and stand out from the rest
ii wont admit
how much it bothers me.
for no one to witness
what ii see...
ii kno u tell me otherwise..
but however....
sumtimes ii think
it'll be this way forever...

twilight fever!!!

so twilight is coming out this friday and im jst so damn happy.
the book is jst so cool.
but im getting mad because every damn quiz ii take about the book ii get bella who is the one character ii wish would die. ii cnt stand her.
but atleast it means ii get my edward.
ii think everyone should read twilight those books are jst amazing and u grow attached to the damn characters. and u learn to hate sum...like jacob black...and love sum like edward cullen.
all ii have to say is team edward all the way!!
and on top of that the guy that plays edward is sexy and jst amazing.
god ii love him so so much...
and he makes me happy to be a brunnette jst cuz he's so damn hot....and hes the only sweetheart and he truley loves bella....
yay!! but 4 more days till it comes out!!

S.A.T Class

ok so today ii had my s.a.t. class today and it's in my mom's school with the kids that go there.
so there is this gay kid named brandon and he is such flaming homo...ii cnt think of another way to put it. so he calls this girl allah the name tiffany and so he told this story to our s.a.t teacher about how she got her name. but ii wasnt listening so ii didnt hear his story. but then allah got mad at him and was like "hey did you guys hear the story about my imaginary friend named brandon." so we started laughin and then brandon looked at her and said "oh hell yeah ii remember him, ii bagged him in about 2 seconds, he looked damn good." we all look at brandon and started laughin at him. even our teacher looked at him and started laughing. after that everyone was crackin jokes and we almost got kickd out of the room because we didn't know how to act. but nothing was as funny as brandon being gaytastic. after that class kind of got boring except when this girl jackie made fun of this girl fong and kept callin her stupid everytime she tried to read and when fong stopped jackie was like what the hell why arent you reading. and it was funny cuz fong kept getting mad. class is always like this, we don't get any work done sumtimes because we play around a lot. it jst makes class more interesting...atleast to me it does.

Dirty little secrets...

• I'm dating someone in the school...
• I'm not fully over my ex girlfriend...as much as I pretend to be...
• I'm more fragile then ppl take me to be..
• I'm more scared of living life then being alone.
• I hide things so that people think I'm always ok.
• I never really tell the truth about how I feel...
• I hate the fact I have to hide my relationship at school...
• Things at home couldn't be worse...
• I don't feel like I deserve the perfect relationship...yet I have one
• I can't stand my mom...
• The reason I want to be far away for college is so that I can be away from home.
• I don't trust people as much as I should....
• I lied my way through therapy...

early morning fun!!

So today is just like any other Sunday, I wake up and have to go see my sister play soccer with her team the blue demons
I thought it was just going to be like the other games, we're loud and proud and cheer our
team on. Today was one of the funniest games ever. So one of the parents of the other team had on these tight pants it's the ones that have the buttons down the side and can come off easy. I was sitting down minding on own business when my mom calls me over and that her and a parent of one of the other kids on my sister's team have come to the conclusion that the guy has on a g-string. So I go and look at him and I started laughing. One of the other parents said he has on panties, I looked at him and I was like mom it's party boy. (for those or you who don't know party boy is a guy off of jackass who wears the same pants and when he feel like it rips them off and dances on people.) So we were sitting there at the side lines and then we were talking about how the goalie for the other team is really good. And it turned out the goalie was party boy's son. So I told my mom the only reason the kid was good was because party boy told him if he didn't play well he was gonna get danced on.
I had never had so much fun as I did today. My mom, the other parents and I just sat their making fun of whoever we could.
Then to make it all better my sister team won. The score was One to Zero so not only did I end up laughing while freezing my buns off. My sister's team worked hard and was able to beat this team...for the second time. We were so proud of them. But that was a great way to start off my day.I couldn't ask for a better morning. =D

my plans after school.

school has only been going on for a month and i wish it was almost over already.....
i really do like school and all but i can't wait till school is over...i am sick of all the b.s.
of living at home. i just want to get away and be able to live my own life the way i want to and how i plan on it. no how my mom or my dad want me to. but me. that's the main thing i really want is to just be able to be me, and not worry about what my mom is gonna think.
so my first order of business when i get to college is to get my lip pierced. my mom hates it and i want it. so that what i shall do.
then my next order of business would be to dye my hair red and purple...
i'm not sure what to do next, but those are the 2 i really want to do.
as i get closer and closer to leaving my house i shall think of more
and post them up here. only because knowning me i would just forget them all
and would be very sad.
i guess that's it for now. WHHOOO!!