juliet simms

say hello to ms. Juliet Simms.

the really pretty lead singer of the awesomely amazing band

Automatic Loveletter.

she sings the amazing song that is posted below this.

she plays guitar and sounds so damn great live...

not to mention she has a song with All Time Low!!

Her voice is jst amazing..if ii could be like anyone...ii would be like her.

shes so damn pretty and shes jst amazing...

ii <33>

her voice is also unique. she has this raspy tone

and its jst so pretty because of the amount high notes she hit.

if ii saw her live..ii think ii would have a heartattack.

but shes jst awesome...

and ii kno so many people that ii have shown her

and they all say she looks good..

*falls to the floor*

aww man....

shes hot....XD

make-up smeared eyes-automatic loveletter

Left your t-shirt in my room
Still smells of you
And the picture you hung on the door
Lay smashed, picture perfect
Explains now
Clearly nothing left but a memory
We only made out
You never kissed me
That's how I learned to hold back all feeling
Wait, please don't go
I won't stay
All these words on replay
I'm okay
It's all right
Good to know that you're fine
Pretending everything is right to make it better
I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes
To show that I'm fine
Some how you have managed to get under my skin
More than anyone ever did
And if every hole makes a scar
And every scar marks it's place
Then I will never live freely without your trace
And it'll never be fair
I wrote my songs for you and you never even cared
So I'll forget you
I'll wash your t-shirt and kill the pillow
And cut you out of pictures
Wait, please don't go
I won't stay
All these words on replay
I'm okay
It's all right
Good to know that you're fine
Pretending everything is right to make it better
I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes
This drama sat shotgun
My eyes rained like autumn
Only the glove box knows how the story goes
Now that this bandage is broken
And the cuts left in open
I'll tell you just one thing
This wasn't worth the sting (x3)

what represents me

this pic represents me b/c...a paint splatter is jst random and all over the place. and it's mad from so many different things and its just like how ii am.
a paint splatter can be the world's biggest mess but then in the end it could be one of the best things that have happened.
ii feel this represent me b/c ii am one big mess...ii have a big heart...and even if ii am a mess ii can still show my tru colors. im a mix of everything. and 1/2 the time i'm all over the place.
and sumtimes ii make the biggest mistakes but they end up working out for me.so ii may be jst a random mess but its like ii wouldnt change how ii am ii love being the paint splatter that ii am. and on top of that paint splatter is unique and thats what ii love abt being me..u wouldnt find anyone like me...XD

SCATTERGORIES...family style....

SCATTERGORIES Rules:
IT'S HARDER THAN IT LOOKS! HIT FORWARD, ERASE MY ANSWERS, ENTERYOURS, SEND IT ON TO 10 PEOPLE INCLUDING THE ONE THAT SENT THIS TO YOU.USE THE 1ST LETTER OF YOUR NAME TO ANSWER EACH OF THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS .THEY HAVE TO BE REAL PLACES, NAMES, THINGS. NOTHING MADE UP! TRY TO USE DIFFERENT ANSWERS THAN THE PERSON WHO SENT IT. YOU CAN'T USE YOUR NAME FOR THE BOY/GIRL NAME QUESTION.
Have FUN!!

1. What is your name: Ariella
2. A 4 Letter Word: Area
3. A Male Name: Artemist!!
4. A Female's Name: Avril
5. An Occupation: Doctor
6. A Color: Amethist
7. Something you wear: arm band!!!
8. A Beverage: a snapple
9. A Food: apricots
10. Something found in the bathroom: aerosalo
11. A place: american girl place
12. A Reason for being late: animal attack....(2 points yay me!!)
13. Something you shout : anal armor!!

1. What is your name: Xiomara
2. A 4 Letter Word: X-men
3. A Male Name: Xylophone
4. A Female's Name: Xylophone
5. An Occupation: Xylophone
6. A Color: Xylophone
7. Something you wear: Xylophone
8. A Beverage: Xylophone
9. A Food: Xanax
10. Something found in the bathroom: Xylophone
11. A place: Xylophone
12. A Reason for being late: X-box
13. Something you shout : "XYLOPHONE, How do you spell it?"

1. What is your name: marisol
2. A 4 Letter Word: math
3. A Male Name: massimo
4. A Female's Name: malika
5. An Occupation: marketing manager (2 points!)
6. A Color: maroon
7. Something you wear: mittens
8. A Beverage: mai tai
9. A Food: mofongo!!
10. Something found in the bathroom: (oi vay...you know where I can go with this?, but I wont! lolol) mirror
11. A place: Maldives (look it up...it's gorgeous!)
12. A Reason for being late: massive menstruation!! (dude...seriously) lol
13. Something you shout : Mama Mia!!

1. What is your name: Aracelis
2. A 4 Letter Word: Arch
3. A Male Name: Andrew
4. A Female's Name: Amelia
5. An Occupation: Astronaut
6. A Color: Amber
7. Something you wear: A coat! LOL!
8. A Beverage: Ale, as in ginger. Or beer. Whatever tickles your pickle.
9. A Food: Asparagus
10. Something found in the bathroom: Ass paper
11. A place: Australia
12. A Reason for being late: Appointment
13. Something you shout : "Apple Martini!!" when the bar gets too noisy =)

1. What is your name: Doreen
2. A 4 Letter Word: Damn
3. A Male Name: David
4. A Female's Name: Denise
5. An Occupation: Doctor
6. A Color: Dk blue
7. Something you wear: diamonds
8. A Beverage: Diet coke
9. A Food: Devil Dog (whoo hooo double dd)
10. Something found in the bathroom: Diaphram
11. A place: Den
12. A Reason for being late: Diarreaha
13. Something you shout : Dufus

just cuz im pissed....how abt an angry song

You'd said we'd never get this far
You said your words, we've played our parts
Said your two cents now
It's my turn
So, sit down, shut up
Are you ready?
So, you think you know how this story goes
Are you ready for this?
Sit down, are you ready for this?
Shut up, are you ready for this?
Stand up, are you ready for this?
Restrain
Are you ready?
I thought you'd never come this far
I thought your words meant something more
Said my two cents now
It's your turn
So stand up and scream
Are you ready?
So you think you know how this story goes
Are you ready for this?
Sit down, are you ready for this?
Shut up, are you ready for this?
Stand up, are you ready for this?
Restrain
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready for this?
Sit down, are you ready for this?
Shut up, are you ready for this?
Stand up, are you ready for this?
Restrain
Are you ready for this?

superbowl

so its sunday...
but not jst any sunday...
try superbowl sunday
holy crap...
steelers v.s. cardinals...
ii for one kinda hate football...
its more fun to play then to watch...
but anyways so far its kinda close...
and im rootin for the steelers all day everyday
but so far its 10-7.....kinda gay ii mean the steelers have 10
but still it should be 10-0...
but w/e we shall see who wins...
sooner or later...lmao

jst to kno sumthins abt me.

not once have ii ever said who ii am....ii think its time for me too do that...

i'm the type of girl that when she falls for sum1 she falls hard...

ii will dance and in public even ii look like a fool.

when ii tell someone ii love you...ii couldnt mean it more.

im a very fragile person....

it takes a lot for me to trust someone when im dating them.

when ii tell someone ii hate them...it means they managed to hurt me.

music is my mind, body and soul.

im bella swan...ii cnt run from it...that damn book twilight...

im an emotional wreck at times...

ii have a habit of making people my world...

when ii tell someone ii wont forget them...it means that they will always be in my heart.

ii have a very bad temper and it can get me in a lot of trouble.

my heart is the worst kind of weapon.

eyeliner makes my world go around...ii cnt leave home without that and a hoodie.

ii am unique and you will never find another girl like me.

im insane, insecure, loving, crazy and so much more.

ii put other ppl ahead of me.

ii have a big heart and let ppl in too easily..and that ii end gettin hurt for that.

im not happy with myself as a person. and ii wish ii could change a lot abt me.

when someone hurts me..ii get even..

my dream day....

have you ever been in one of those moods...
where you just want too run around and dance where ever you can...
jst to feel free...
ii would just love to put on boxers a tank top and knee high socks...
jst to start blasting hellogoodbye or fall out boy and jst sing and dance...
thats my dream day. to have the house to myself..
or maybe have a friend over who would gladly join me.
boy that would jst be an awesome day...
and then make some chocolate chip cookies...*sigh*
thats jst my dream day...it might happen monday...if it does...
OOOHH EEEEMMMM GEEE....ii would jst be so damn happy...
ii mean ii would have to do it alone...but who cares...ii get to be in boxers...
until ii have to get my sister ofcourse...lmao

cat food!!

so....today my mom came home...and wanted to make food..
she looked through our cabinets and finally found tuna....smh
ii hate the smell of tuna. makes me kinda sick.
butzz anyways...my mom opened it and was like "mmmm catfood...."
and ii looked at her and started laughin...
10 minutes later my dad came into the kitchen
and was like "yummy cat food" ii started laughin,
my mom turned around and told him "screw you both"
me and my dad started laughin again.
5 minutes later my sister walked into the kitchen
im doing dishes, my dad is lookin for sumthin to munch on
and my mom is finishin her sammich.
my sister comes in and says "eww why does it smell like cat food??"
me and my dad looked at my mom and started laughin...my sister had no idea
what was goin on and was askin what was so funny.
my mom turned around and said "screw you all ii swear"
ii started laughin harder and so did my dad..and then my sister
stormed off cuz she had no idea what was going on
my mom finished her sammich and jst walked out...
and then ii was alone again...TT_TT

pepsi smash!!

so this weekend is super bowl...
and my fave thing abt it is on tonight...
PEPSI SMASH!!
to matters ever cool.
FALL OUT BOY IS GONNA BE ON TONIGHT!!
ii jst hope they do my song
headfirst slide into coopertown on a bad bet.
if ii hear that song..ii will do a happy dance where ever ii am.
but they have other cool songs...but ii really wanna hear that song.
cuz it jst makes me happy then any of their other songs can.
but we'll see what happens...if ii dnt hear the song
i'll end up going to my room and playin it.
jst so that ii can go and jump around a bit.
nothing better then that...XD

scooby doo!!

so its offical...ii learned scooby doo on the bass.
and it sounds AWESOME!! im am jst so damn happy
ii played it for my sister and one of my best friends
and then on tuesday.
im just happy..next song is gonna be super mario brothers
just cuz that song is awesome...and if ii learn that...
ii will call myself..FRIGGEN AMAZING!!
but until then..ii shall try to serende ppl with scooby doo...

twilight...

so everyone has the twilight phase ooo ii love this person....ooh ii love that person...ooh ii want an edward...omg im bella...omg ii <33 edward...and ii cnt take it...
ii hate twilight....
TWILIGHT SUCKS
ii mean the books r ok..
and the movie was alright
but it wasnt everything.
edward is a crazy monkey
and bella is a stupid klutz
ii mean ii love japser...
cuz hes hot... and if ii knew sum1 like that ii would be happy
but thats abt it.
alice is cool...
but ii really can't take twilight..
it can go kick rocks with flip flops.

music=<33333333333333

yay ii got my music!! this has sum of my fave songs on it..

my prayer

GOD...plz dnt let me get in trouble...
ii swear ii will believe in you again.
ii wont doubt you anymore.
pleas don't have my bf come today.
ii do miss him a lot.
but ii dont wanna get in trouble.
ii will not say your name in vain
ii jst want things to work out today.
so please don't have him come.
ii will even start praying every night.
AMEN!!!

a survey cuz im bored..lol

Have you ever kissed someone whos name starts with a C? jst my sister on the cheek..
Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? yeah...jess
Do you get along with girls? sumtimes
If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? yeah...but it depends on how much they like me.
Do you have feelings for the last person you held hands with? havent held any1s hand in awhile
Who's the last person you took a picture with? caro, michael
Something you do a lot? tyrell's mom...lmao
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair
Bet you're missing someone now? yeah ii am...
What are you craving right now? chocolate...
Who's your last missed call from? umm prolly jess
Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind? yeah.
How do you know the last person you were in a car accident with? nvr been in a car accident
Who are you thinking about right now? my boyfriend...
When is the last time your stomach turned? umm when ii saw part of the vern tornensex tape...BLECH
What is something you liked about your day? didnt happen yet.
What are you doing tomorrow? chillin in manhattan with jess.
How is your hair? curly and cute...XD
Do you watch TV or listen to music more? ii watch music on tv...BBBOOOOYEAH!!.
Don't lie, would you go out with your ex again? umm no...
Did you sleep at least seven hours last night? ofcourse not. nvr do.
Who was the last person you called? my mommy
What is the last movie you watched? ii no can remember....lol
Your most recent ex shows up randomly at your house what do you say? i'd ask her whats she doin by my house and does she wanna come in.
When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? last night
If someone gave you 100 dollars, would you spend or save it?spend at hot topic.
Would you date someone 20 years older than you? nah...
Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours? yeah ii did
What's the last thing you bought? umm my hair..cuz ii gots it done
When's the next time you'll buy something for someone? when ii get money
Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? yeah...lol
Ever kissed an ex after you broke up? yeah...
Ever kissed anyone on your top friends? theyre all bands...so no
Kissed someone with a gf or bf? not...but ii have kissed while ii was with sum1
Ever made out with someone who was a really bad kisser? TT_TT yesh...
Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you date them? umm my sister. are u kidding me??
What are you doing after this? depends on if my bf comes or not....
Did you go to sleep last night smiling? lmao no thats pretty gay
Are you high? nah. ii gave up on that
Where do you think your best friend is right now? taking a test.
What do the majority of people in your life call you? ari, emo, sis
Ever go camping? yeah...ii hated it
Do you fall for people easily? yeah...
What's your mood? sleepy...and waiting

1. What’s your name? ariella
2. What is your favorite thing to wear? hoodies skinny jeans and a tigh shirt.
3. Last thing you ate? tacos...at dinnner
4. One place you will NEVER eat at? taco bell.
5. I say Shotgun, you say: WEDDING!!
6. Last person you hugged? my teddy bear charlie
7. Does anyone you know wanna date you? yesh...quite a lot..im quite popular
8. Would you date anyone you met online? did it once....lmao
9. Name something you like physically about yourself: my... sexy sexy hair
10. The last place you went out to dinner to? faan...chinese plaece by my moms job
11. Who is your best friend? ii gots a lot...
12. What time of the day is it? 9:35 a.m
13. Who/What made you angry today? nobody....yet
14. Baseball or Football? ii dnt kno...baseball cuz of david wright...hes smexxii
15. Ever gone skinny dipping? nah im good.
16. Favorite type of Food? anything that taste damn good.
17. Favorite holiday: HALLOWEEN!!
18. Do you download music: yesh...yesh ii do
19. Do you care if your socks are dirty? mhmm
20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos? ha ii would get it to say f u jst for fun
21. Would you date the person that posted this? dnt kno the person...she could be a weirdo
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yesh....kinda lmao
23. Do you love anyone? with all my heart
24. Are colored contact lenses sexy? only if they r green
25. Have you ever bungee jumped? nope...
26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting? nah.
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? yesh its so damn nasty.
27. How many pets do you have? one stupid turtle
29. Have you met a real redneck? yesh...theyre funny
30. How is the weather right now? sucks...there is snow and its raining
31. What are you listening to right now? invader zim!!
32. What is your current favorite song? gives you hell by all american rejects
33. What was the last movie you watched? still dnt remember...lmao
34. Do you wear contacts? used too
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? my mommy's school.
36. What are you afraid of? clowns
37. How many piercings have you had? 2.
38. What piercings do you want? my lip, my tongue, my nose
39. What's one thing you've learned this year? give sum1 ur all and they'll give it back
40. What do you usually order from Starbucks? signiture hot chocolate.
42. Have you ever fired a gun: nah
43. Are you missing someone? yeah.
44. Favourite TV show? gossip girl,degrassi, and invader zim
45. Do you have an obession with WoW? umm no..
47. Has anyone said you look like a celebrity? nope
47. What celeb do you look like? ur mom...TEE HEE
48. Who would you like to see right now? my boyfriend at my door
49. Favorite movie of all time? NIGHTMARE BEFORE XXXMAS!!
50. Do you find yourself loved? yeah by a lot of ppl
51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to? tee hee yeah
52. Favorite smell? my bf colon
53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn? buttery and salty as hell please
54. What's something that really bugs you? stupid ppl.
55. Do you like Michael Jackson? nah
56. Taco Bell or Burger King? BK ALL DAY!!
57. What's your favorite perfume? my american girl one
58. Favorite baseball team? mets..
59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number? hell no.
60. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep? umm a day
61. Last time you went bowling? ii dnt kno sumtime last yr
62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? back of my spanish class.
63. Who was your last phone call? my mommy

CHUCK NORRIS!!

so ii am the weirdest person in the world...
and my fave thing ever are the stupid chuck norris facts...
so you can imagine my amusement when ii saw that they had
chuck norris facts to put on your blog.
and ii love to now jst go on my blog to see the different stupid facts
my mom thinks of them as retarted and pointless.
but its jst the little bit of joy...to brighten up my day
each time. jst seeing those puts a smile on my face,
ii have no idea why but it works.
ii think it might be because ii love to look at stupid stuff
and ii laugh at almost anything.
but these top the cake.
and ii kno a lot of ppl who cnt stand it...ii think theyre still and have no humor...
oh wells...YAY FOR STUPID CHUCK NORRIS STUFF!!

l cosplay

ii <33this kid. jesus he's the best cosplay of L ii have ever seen. this kid...is jst....WOW...if ii went to the anime convention and saw him ....ii would jst drool...but ii bet there would be a lot of hot guys there. but hes my favorite ii did a search of L cosplay and he came out as my favorite....HOLY CRAP!!

ii mean how can u not jst stare at him. his eyes are amazing and he looks really hot...hes just beautiful....*sigh*

poppin champagne!!

this is the world's coolest vid.
this is by my favorite band all time low.
me and sum of my friends are gonna do the dance
thats towards the end of the video.
this song makes me wanna dance and jump up and down...YAY

my hair...

so ii did my hair...
its a sexy sexy red.
and its not the whole head...
and my mom even likes it...
which is funny cuz she didnt want me to do it from the begining.
and now she loves it, ii did my bangs and the underneath 1/2 of my hair.
it looks so damn pretty.
and since ii went to the chinese hair salon my hair is full straight.
and really soft. ii couldnt be happier with it.
plus ii look more emo then ii did b4.
which ii didnt think was possible...but ii managed it...
ofcourse im amazing like that...
and the good thing is ii can look scene if ii really want too....YAY!!
ii guess thats it for now...not sure what else ii could say abt my sexy sexy long hair. =]

bitter friendship

i'll pretend that ii know you....

act like we're the best of friends.

i'll tell you my secrets

and we'll make some amends

i'll help with your problems

and you will help with mine.

of course no matter what...

your advice i'll decline.

we'll be bitter friends....

a friendship built on lies.

but screwing with me

is not something ii advise.

so keep the fake smiles

and the fake laughter too...

cuz if think this is gonna last...

well that's just not true...

=] happiness

u kno if sum1 was to come up to me and ask me how ii felt abt my bf...ii wouldnt kno where to begin..ii mean....the way ii feel abt him...is jst amazing....knowin him for 2 years now...he knows everything abt me and ii kno everything abt him. ii kno when hes upset....and he knows when im upset. ii cnt get it past him what so ever....sure he may joke around with me and call me names...but he makes up for it...by tryint to be the best for me...the 5 months with him have been pretty great...sure we had break ups and everything....but im commiting myself and hes commiting his self too. sure people may say im to young for love.....
but ii kno for fact ii dnt want to be with out him...sure im going to college...but im not one to stay in relationships long or really commit myself. when things get heavy ii tend to run away. or do sumthin to make the person leave me...but this time ii kno ii dnt want him to leave me....ii trust him so much that im not sure if ii would be able to trust sum1 as much as ii trust myself with him...im not ready to get married to him...god no...ii jst wanna keep what we have now...where he makes me feel the happiest ii ever felt and ii make him happy.....
ii mean the way he makes me feel...its jst ii dnt kno....hes the last thing ii think abt before ii go to sleep....ii sleep in his hoodie cuz it makes me feel close to him. when ever he puts his arms around me ii get butterflies. he stupid little jokes always brighten my day. when he tells me he loves me ii kno he means it more then anything. when he looks at me ii feel like the prettiest thing in the world...when he kisses me....my heart skips a beat and ii feel my breath shortin...ii love him more then ii ever loved any1 ii ever dated....im not sure what ii would do without him.....ii would kill to go to sleep and wake up in his arms. he means the world to me....and maybe even more...and its not that ii need him...ii jst dnt wanna be without him.....hes jst my better half.....

DAWNIEKINS!!

so every summer for one week ii go to the willie mae rock camp for girls....

its like my second home and each year ii make new friends.

this summer...ii become friends with sum1 jst like me.

her name is dawn....but ii call her dawniekins.

shes a kick ass guitar player with a sexy sexy green guitar....(that ii kinda humped at the showcase...but thats another story...)

she wasnt in my band....but she was in my band's sister band.

ii gave her a joint lap dance with my drummer on her lap. 

im not sure if she enjoyed it or not....ii hope she did...

BUT...ii lovers dawniekins and it sucks cuz the last time ii saw her was dec. 15 the day ii went to go see fall out boy. but ii couldnt really talk to her cuz her ex gf was gettin over jealous and shit...

hmm what else can ii say??

ii found out that shes had a crush on me since aug.....AND THE WHOLE TIME II THOUGHT IT WAS ON MY DRUMMER!!.....ii mean she did have a crush on her...but she liked me more....

and it was funny cuz ii kinda have a crushie on her... and she knows and ii kno she likes me. but we wont do anything.

but ii dnt kno what ii would do without dawniekins she makes me happeh!!

refreshing...

you kno how there is that one person that u think u can never hate...

that person for me was my ex gf jessica. 

ii always thought ii wouldnt have been able to hate her.

but ii jst cnt help it. 

she said sumthin only to hurt me and she did it on purpose.

ii jst cnt for give that.

for the first time since we started talkin again on myspace.

ii can fully say ii have no feelings for jessica lauren rios.

ii have nothing to say to her.

ii dnt care if her friends dnt like me.

ii jst dnt care....

and she can blame me for w/e....but it wouldnt have been like this...

if she hadnt screwed with me in the begining...

things would have been fine.

but ii really dnt give....

she can do w/e she wants...

II GAVE UP ON HER!!

IT'S OFFICAL!!

mother nature hates emo kids....
me and ashley have come to the conclusion of that...
she makes it snow a shitload today...
shes gonna make it snow tomorrow...
do u kno what snow does to emo kids...
it screws up their perfectly straight hair....
and make up...
WHAT ELSE DOES AN EMO KID HAVE!!
bad hair and bad make up=A VERY VERY SAD EMO!!
so b/c mother nature is makin it snow...
she hates emo kids...
let all the emo kids around the world now...
it isnt safe for them....
(//_T) why does she have to pick on the emos??

random thinking

ii was doing some random thinking...and ii couldnt be happier with my life... i'm finally in a relationship that works. ii care abt him and he cares abt me. not to mention hes my longest relationship....5 months...lol may not seem like a long time..but its the first time im gonna commit myself fully. ii got into the school ii really wanted to go too...ii have a lot of great friends....but one thing that really brings me down..is thinking about my grandmothers. she died 2 years ago. and it's weird because there is a lot of things ii would have liked to share with her...ii would have told her first abt me being bi..and ii know that ii would have had her when my mom was havin problems with it. ii kno she would have wanted to meet my gf at the time. and now ii would have loved for my boyfriend to meet her. she meant the world to me...and ii dnt kno...it's cuz of her that i'm the way ii am. my sassyness, my humor, my compassion for people...is all cuz of the times ii speant with her. ii couldn't have asked for a better second mother. but for her anyone who met her, loved her. she kept it real, didn't care who it would offend. she always cared about other people and best of all she was funny as hell....whats bettr then that.....im not sure what ii miss the most.
-the endless hrs of shirley temple, golden girls, columbo, murder,she wrote, laura, or sala de paraja.
-the non-stop jokes
-her hugs
-playing with her jewlery
-her advice
when ii think about it, what ii miss the most would have to be the love she gave me...

back to the no name story

hallway....

as soon as ii stepped out of the library Saraphina ran up to me.
"Vendetta...ii did it....after you left. Christy came over to me and started asking me questions. and we really hit it off...we both like a lot of the samethings. we're going out tonight. thanks for the help." She gave me a gave a hug and ii patted her back.
"it's no problem, im happy for you. ii hope things go great tonight." ii gave her my best fake smile and turned to go to my locker. as ii started walking away ii heard her footsteps behind me.
"Vendetta wait up..." she grabbed my hand and ii felt my heart skip."do you have science next??" ii shook my head yes and looked at her.
"ii just have to go to my locker. the science room is down the hall over there and the fouth door on your right."
"thanks..." ii watched her walk away and little by little the hallway emptied. before ii knew it, there was only me and one other person in the hallway. ii turned to see who..and ii felt time freeze as ii saw Alesana in the hallway. She looked at me and walked over.
"Vendetta...long time no talk...."ii looked at her unsure of what to say...or where this was going. "that girl your with...the new one..what's up with that??"
"you mean Saraphina??" she shook her head yes. "nothing we're friends...ii dnt kno. im jst helping her get around.... why does it bother you??"
she looked at me...."your the one who started the whole thing...ii may have left you...but you started the fight....ii not only broke your heart...but ii broke you as person." she sighed. "it's simple." she pushed me against the locks and pushed her body against mine. "u want me..but u can't have me...and ii plan to use that against you..." she moved closed to my face and her lips were near mine. "you can try all you want to go for Saraphina....but Vee...ii will do whatever ii can to make your life miserable....ii will even take Saraphina from you...don't test me." she kissed me and ii felt her bite my lower lip."no matter what your at my command...no way i'm letting you go..." she walked away and left me there...ii turned to my locker grabbed my book and ran to class...my head wad clouded with everything that just happened. ii kno its wrong what she plans to do...but ii dnt think ii have it in me to fight her....

hollywood undead....song: No5

Hollywood, We're never going down.



[Chorus: Deuce] And all the kids in the hood come on wave and shake your hands hollywood we're never going down And when you're drunk shake that ass like you know how to dance hollywood we're never going down.



[Verse 1: Charlie Scene] Start gettin loud, I wanna party now If you hate on undead that's a party foul I only drink Mickey's, I can't afford the can I drink so much they call me Charlie forty hands If the keg is tapped and you're gettin capped take your girl to the sack and we'll take a nap Ladies drink em fast so I can have a blast you got your beer gogs on and I'm gettin ass like "Oh my god is that Charlie Scene?" Lady show me your treats like it's halloween You got a fake i.d. and you're seventeen I'm a complete catastrophy buzzing around you like a bumble bee So let's take some shots! do a beer run and flip off a cop! Girl's give me props when they're on my jock! Paris Hilton said that's hot when she saw my cock! That's hot!



[Chorus: Deuce]



[Verse 2: Johnny 3 Tears] I'm about to serve it up for all you party goers! Scene kids, meat head, alchi's, stoners! Dancin around like a bunch of faggots funnier then fuck you can ask Bob Saget! I never claimed that I knew how to dance but I'll get drunk, get high, then pull down my pants So fuck five bucks just fill up my cup don't kiss me bitch you just threw up. Now drunk as fuck about to pass out destination your mothers couch "Dude is it true you screwed my mom?" Fuck yeah bro that pussy was bomb. So I'm hoppin, jumpin, sippin, and skippin! It's nights like these that we all love livin! So take out your hands and throw the H.U. up now wave it around like you don't give a fuck! Check please!



[Chorus: Deuce]





[Verse 3: Funny Man] Can't stop won't stop Charlie make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Johnny make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop J make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Peters make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Kurlzz make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop Funny make the booty drop! Can't stop won't stop let me see the panties drop Deuce's on the dance floor let me see your booty pop! Grab your drink, get on the floor! Grab your drink, and get on the floor! Let's dance in the hood shake that ass Hollywood!



[Chorus: Deuce]

my sister the aminal lover...and yesh ii meant aminal..

so since it snowed...
we have had a little fun at my house.
animal tracks have showed up around my house...
we have cats, squirrels and a mysterious one.
at first we thought that the possum from last winter had come back to our house.
but after a look at this website called bear-track.com...we realized it wasnt...
after my sister thought it was...
-bobcat...
-lynx
-badger
-black bear
-moutian lion
-dog
-cat
-river otter
-gray fox
-wolf...
the list foes on and on..but finally....we realized that we might have bunny on our hands...wth a bunny is doin roamin the streets of brooklyn is amazing....but we really still have no clue what the hell it is...if their is more then one... and ii guess only time will tell what it is...but the problem is the little bugger runs around either at dusk...or early early in the moring when no one in my house is around...so its like..we have no way to see it...oh wells...its funny to see my sister look at tracks online and see what they are...lol...gets her off my back somtimes. XD

still no idea for a name....

Library...

ii looked up at the clock and saw that ii still had 45 minutes left for lunch...this gave me time to do whatever work ii needed too. ii opened my email and saw ii had one from Alex.

hey sweets,

ii miss seeing you!! *tear tear* hows skool?? anything new??

anyone new?? incase your wondering ii found the perfect person.

his name is Jack and my mom loves him. shes finally fine that im gay...

took her long enough. 6 1/2 months to be exact. but we all cnt be perfect can we??

im trying to come visit as soon as ii can...but ii can't find a job and money is tight round my house. not too mention my dad is still being a dick.

him and my mom fight almost everynight now.

ii have a feeling that it's gonna be over soon.

when that happens. i'm coming to you.

so you better be stock with all sorts of candy.

but please write back as soon as you can.

Love you,

Alexander xoxo

ii read the email a couple of times before ii could think of an answer. ii kno if ii told Alex about Saraphina ii wouldn't hear the end of it. but it was a risk ii had to take. ii opened up a new message and started to write.

hello gay buddy of mine,

long time no talk.

ii miss hearing ur sassy back talking in class.

nothing is new...school is just as boring as ever.

but there us a new student...shes like an uber goth...

and really hot...her name is Saraphina and i'm working on a english project with her.

ii kno what your thinking...and no ii haven't told her that i'm a lesbian.

not really sure if ii should. ii mean what happened to me and Aiden still burns.

ii mean its my first day of school and this hot girl is all ii can think of.

but ii screwed up my chance with her anyways.

she asked about Christy Joyce...and ii was with her until...

her and Christy had a moment and ii jst left Saraphina in the cafe.

and Saraphina asked all about Christy...so that's out the window.

ii kno your gonna be mad when you read..but ii dnt kno...

ii whimped out....my bad...

anyways. ur more then welcomed to my house.

you remember what my mom said about you.

"Alex dear..your welcomed here anytime...i'll be your mom if you need one.

you kno ii will always love you"

so there won't be a problem.

write back soon.

love you too,

Vendetta...XOXO

hmm...it still needs a name...

the lunch table....



as me and Saraphina walked to the lunchtable ii felt "her" eyes follow me. it burned a hole in the back of my head...ii turned to look and out eyes met for a minute...ii could see the pain and ii dropped my gaze. Saraphina looked at me and sat down with her food...

"whats up with that??" she pointed to "her"....."who's she??". ii looked at Saraphina not sure how to answer her...

"the 'she' your referring too..is someone ii used to be bestfriends with..we have a problem abt 3 weeks ago...ii stood home for about 2 weeks and now i'm back...and that's when you came in...her name is Alesana...." ii felt the tears about to start..ii couldn't tell her just yet....it's too soon. and it still hurts very much.

"so she meant a lot to you huh?" ii looked at her and shook my head yes...she started playing with her food. "ii think their is more then your letting on...but ii won't push you. ii guess when you trust me enough you'll tell me...until then i'll just drop me.

"thanks" ii muttered...she shook her head yes and started looking around the cafe.
"so since i'm here...can you tell me about some of the people here??" ii looked around the room.
"who do you wanna kno about Saraphina??"
she looked around and nodded to this girl..."ii wanna kno about her....everything you know...."
ii turned and looked at the girl and ii felt my jaw drop. ii turned to see one of the hottest girls in school...besides Alesana.
"well Saraphina...that 'her' is named Christy Joyce, she's a senior like us. She's Bi ii believe...ii don't remember anyone. She has never been in a relationship for more then 2 months...guys want her, girls want her. girls want to be her, and she's not the head of the cheerleaders but just as popular as her.umm what else...when she see what she wants she will go for it no matter what...even if they're taken and then she'll leave them in a heart beat. she just chews people up and then spits them out...but other then that she's really hot and easy. and when she's drunk it's even worse." ii saw a twinkle in Saraphina's eyes as ii told her about Christy and ii knew that ii might have messed up my chance with Saraphina. ii bit my lip and looked at Saraphina.
" so she's not dating anyone...ii could really try my chance with her...."ii looked over at Christy and realized that she was checking Saraphina out.
ii sighed and looked at Saraphina..."if you want to call her over..do it...ii have work to do i'll talk to you later.." ii turned and saw Christy walking towards Saraphina. Saraphina waved bye to me and ii walked out. why can't anything work for me....ii sighed and started walking to the library.
ii have being me sumtimes...

hmm how about a poem....

u can blame me for w/e and the how u claim to be...

but u were already this way b4 u met me.

u said ii fuked u over and whatever else u think...

what about the times u skated around my feelings like an ice skating rink?

so go on and say this and that...

but in the end its all ur fault..

and thats a fact...

so give it all ur might to make me feel bad...

but in the end...

u'll be the only one whos sad....

a poem...from oct....lmao

when ii reached the top of the moutain...
ii let out a heart filled scream...
jst to tell the world
all the things you did to me....
your lying, your cheating..
your broken promises,
all the problems you did created
and nothing ii did...
ii gave you my heart
and ii got nothing in return...
let me tell you baby,
lesson learned...
i'm on this moutain
to forget all these thoughts
of you.
i'm gonna run away from
those horrible thing you do.

my story still needs a name....lol

lunch time...
when me and Saraphina made it to the doors of the lunchroom. ii felt the need to turn around ii knew "she" would be in there. ii felt a tug on my heart as the flood of memories can back. Saraphina noticed my hesitation to go inside...
"umm vendetta are you coming or not??" ii took a deep breath and really thought if going in would be a really good idea.
"umm ii dnt kno Saraphina...ii have..umm...sumthin...ii need to ermm...do..."ii stuttered...she gave me a funny and sighed....
"ii understand.." she paused and looked me in the eyes...ii felt my heart stop...."you dnt want to be seen with the freaky new girl right?...the girl that everyone will stare at the new....FREAK.." damn it...ii really screwed up my chance with her....why can't ii do shit right....
"it's not that at all...ii really jst needed to get some research done. ii really don't have anything against you. ii happen to think your a pretty cool person..."
she looked at me and thought abt what ii said....she smiled at me and grabbed my arm and dragged me into the lunchroom..

my story...it need a name....lol

period two...

ii walked to my english class and saw Saraphina sitting in the seat next to mine.

ii felt my heart race as ii walked towards her seat. she didn't say anything as ii took a seat next to her. my english teacher Ms. Gaskarth came over and started talking to Saraphina.

"we started a unit on creative writing. We're doing a partner based one. All but one person has a partner and that's because she just came back from being sick." ii felt my heart stop...ii think my teacher is trying to kill me. "Vendetta would you mind working with our new student?" She gave me the teacher look and ii knew ii didn't have choice. my throat was dry so ii swallowed and took a deep breath. "no....ii dont...it's umm fine Ms. Gaskarth." She shook her head yes and walked away. ii turned to Saraphina and ii felt my heart flutter. ii recovered and went to open my mouth.

"umm Vendetta before you say anything i'm going to be frank with you...ii don't want to be here. ii don't want to work with anyone. ii have nothing against you, but i'm just not a people person."

"Saraphina..ii-"

"oh just so you know...i'm a lesbian....most people run from me when they find out...so go ahead be like everyone else....ii know now you want to change partners."

"can you just let me speak??" she gave me a look but said nothing

"i'm not just some stupid person that's gonna judge you because your different. i'll stay partners with you for this. but after your free to do what you want unless you want to talk to Ms. Gaskarth and see if you can work by yourself." she looked at me and thought about it...

" ii guess ii could work with you...for this project. it's not going to kill me...ii guess..."

"fine... so what type of story do you want to write...or do you want it to be poems or songs??"

"story might work out...let's brainstorm." she patted my wrist and started writing. ii felt my heart skip again and my breath left me. ii put my head on my desk and sighed....

"are you alright Vendetta??" ii shook my head yes and ii felt her put her hand on my back...ii felt shivers down my back...5 minutes later it was time for lunch...

"vendetta...do you have lunch now??" ii shook my head yes.

"well umm do you mind if ii sit with you??"

"no you can come ii don't sit with anyone anyways." she looked at me but didn't ask any questions.

hm...a story

so for creative writing ii decided to write a story...i'ma do it on here and then jst transfor it to paper...

First Period...

ii looked up at the celing of my highschool. it's always the same. it's always the same ugly piss yellow tiles. ii sighed and put my head back down on the desk. it's always the same thing. ii looked at my teacher Mr. McKay and he looked like he didn't wanna be there as much ii didn't. we heard a quiet knock on the door and we all looked as Mrs. Roslin walked in with mysterious girl behind her. Mrs. Roslin whispered something into Mr. McKay's and then left the girl. Mr. Mckay cleared his throat. "Class ii would like to introduce to you a new student her name is Saraphina and she just moved here from Las Vegas. Please welcome her with open arms and welcome her here to our little town of LakeWood." Mr. McKay looked around and spotted a seat next to me. "Saraphina can you please take a seat. There is one near Vendetta."
He looked at me. "Vendetta can you please raise your hand." ii raised my hand
and watched her walked towards me. ii studied her...she was beautiful.
she had this blue/black raven hair. her hazel eyes danced in the fluorescent lighting.
her pale skin looked amazing compared to the piss colored walls...
ii flashed her a smile as she sat down next me to me. she looked down and started writing in her notebook. five minutes later the bell rang and she ran out the class. ii sighed..some people can be so strange.

AWKWARD MOMENT!!

so today was like the worst day ever.
of all days....
of all friggen days to have a turtle moment...
made me wanna crawl under a rock...
ii felt my knees buckle
and my heart began to race.....
ii had to grab on my boyfriend
to keep from falling down....
but let me tell you what happened...
ii was with my bf cuz he came with me today
and my mom was late to come get us...
and me, him and my sister were together was their
and we saw my ex gf with her new gf....
and my ex gf still has feelings for me...
and she hates my bf...
and it was just so damn bad...
and the ting is ii had a feeling ii was gonna see her
just look at what happened....
ii jst hope it never happens again....
it was too much for me...

a paramore morning

so this morning ii got serenaded by my friend gio.
he wasnt singing to me...
but he was playin paramore song ii wanted
and it made me wanna sing along...and the thing is we do this every morning
he'll play paramore songs and i'll sing
today ii ended up singing to caro and she it was funny cuz she was just standing there taking it.
there wasnt much else she could do unless she was gonna walk away.
but she didnt and ii sang
-misery business
-decode
-crushcrushcrush
-pressure
and finally
-emergency
which is what ii sang to caro and she lovered it.
its a great way to start off the morning lol.

part of my fave songs by all time low

meet me on thames Street

i'll take you though i'm hardly worth your time.

in the cold you look so fierce but i'm warm enough.

because the tensions like a fire.

we'll hit south broadway in a matter of minutes

and like a bad movie, i'll drop a line

fall in the grave i've i've been diggin myself

but there's room for two

six feet under the stars.

-Six feet under the stars

i've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you to dwell,

in this endeavor, make this last forever....

i'm just delirious

you can't be serious,

you're so infamous for leaving me a mess...

-The girl's a straight up hustler

take a breath

don't it sound so easy?

never had a doubt 

now i'm going crazy

watching from the floor.

take a breath

and let the rest come easy 

never settle down

cuz the cash flow leaves me

always wanting more

-Dear Maria, Count me in

you've got me poppin' champagne

i'm at it again

caught up in the moment

but not in the right way

i'm falling in between

tearing up a the seams

we're aiming to please

and aesthetics don't hurt one bit.

-Poppin Champagne 

stay awake, get a grip and get out

you're safe from the weight of the world

just take a second to set things straight 

i'll be fine even though i'm not always right

i can count on the sun to shine

dedication takes a lifetime

but dreams only last for the night

-Stay Awake(dreams only last for the night)

my football sunday...

sitting in my living room...
my dad watchin the football game...
is it me...or is the t.v gettin louder...
the roar of the ppl at the stadium...
my mom is upstairs sick...
the surround sound is off...
and its all from the tv...
the yelling and screaming....
the blowin of the whistle....
ii turn to look at my dad...
and he lowers the volume and ask...
"is this better for you?"
ii give him the look and he picks it up again.....
its the samething every sunday....
football....football...football

my fave fall out boy song from folie a duex

If home is where the heart is then we're all just fuckedI can't rememberI can't rememberAnd I want it so bad I'd shoot the sunshine into my veinsI can't rememberThe good old daysAnd it's kind of funnyThe way we're wearing anchors on our shirtsWhen being anchored or bored just feels like a curseMy mind is a safeAnd if I keep it in we all get richMy body is an orphanageWe take everyone inDoing lines of dust and sweat off last night's stageJust to feel like youMilligrams in my headBurning tobacco in my wind chasing the directionChasing the direction you wentYou're a bottled starThe planets alignYou're just like MarsYou shine in the skyYou shine in the skyAre all the good times getting gone?They come and go and go and come and go (come and go and come and go)Oh yeah I've got a lot of friends who are starsBut some are just black holesMy mind is a safeAnd if I keep it in we all get richMy body is an orphanageWe take everyone inDoing lines of dust and sweat off last night's stageJust to feel like youAnd it's kind of funnyThe way we're wearing anchors on our shirtsWhen being anchored or bored just feels like a curseMy mind is a safeAnd if I keep it in we all get richMy body is an orphanageWe take everyone inDoing lines of dust and sweat off last night's stageJust to feel like youIf home is where the heart is then we're all just fucked

the song is called 27

OMG ITS 2009!!!

yeah ii kno im late...but i've been busy....
it's 09 and ii really dnt care...
ii wrote a poem about it too...
its one thats not niice but true..

hello drama

hello tears

hello bullshit

in the up and coming year

everyone claims

i'm changing this and that,

it's a damn lie

and we all know that for a fact.

it's all gonna be the same

on ones gonna be new.

it's all empty lies

and we all have a clue

so go on say your different

say your better then the old you.

in the end sweetie,

we all know that shit ain't true.